once again copied from my journal to my blog
well if the first section is for my musings and thoughts and the third section is for my attempt at journaling I guess it’s the second section of this book will be for RPGs. though I wonder if some of my characters using still qualify as mental musings. well I hope future me has fell on memories of reading the stuff from the past and I hope anyone else is reading this will enjoy and understand me a bit better.
not to be timid that is a lesson I need to learn. One of the skills I learned as a child was tamping down emotions. to avoid conflict I would easily lie to myself and others better to avoid a conflict then Express what I thought of what was really going on. fear held me prisoner. If I did choose to express or share my thoughts I tended to choose a bombastic style. If loud and over-the-top left likely to be challenged. I was an introvert who acted like an extrovert for a defense mechanism. Sadly being aware of the problem was not enough to cause me to change myself.